my letter the cause of my long illness but in case you should hear I had better tell as it has been found out but how I cannot imagine for Mrs Paul and Mrs Kirton were the only people besides the doctor who know and they never mentioned it. I suppose Mrs Featherston knew and she must have told. I have no doubt however that you suspected what was wrong from what I told you in one of my letters. I felt very much disappointed at first but I think now love that it is fortunate it happened for if it had not I would not now be able to give poor Mama so much attention as I do now. Do not be angry dearest for saying it was fortunate for I am sure if you knew the fatigue I have to undergo now you would agree with me. You need not feel in the least uneasy about me for I am now as well as ever. I should be thankful that I got over it so easily. I did not suffer half what some do, indeed I was so well that I could not imagine what the doctor kept me in bed for so long for,