Your very looks grieved me to the heart as I partly new your state of mind. You felt you could do good but lacked proper authority to carry it out. It will be the same now and if you do not take a trip home or to Australia depend upon it you will feel very unhappy so that I beg of you as your brother to well weigh matters before the chances close and a new staff of native doctors rise up to undo all your toil for years. I heard from dear Douglas from Akitio and I am very glade indeed he is there and hope he will come here also at the shearing. I now must end. With every good wish for you & our sisters at Wellington and remain Your affectionate brother Archibald John McLean