never now with the painful feelings I had at first I feel so assured of her perfect happiness. I am quite resigned now to my loss and although I feel the want of a mother's love and advice yet I would not wish her back again. You may think darling that I am in low spirits because I write this way but I am quite happy. It is my greatest pleasure now to talk of her to you. I often think that the spirits of the departed watch over those they loved on earth and if they do I am sure my dear mother watches over me. I have never since her death done anything which was not right. Sometimes when I have felt inclined to disobey you but I seemed to hear her say you are doing wrong. I must conclude for tonight love. Jessie came to tell me it is near 12. God bless you my darling Donald. Sunday night I am sorry to acknowledge that I did not get up in time to go to the English church as there was no service in our own. Perhaps however it is as