work so I must try to be patient. I have felt in very low spirits all day. Do you remember this night two years ago love how happy I was then. I am sure there was not one at the ball that night as happy as me for you had come back when I had given up all hopes of seeing you. Poor Mama, never shall I forget how she tried to comfort me all that day when she saw me dull by telling me she was sure you would be in yet. When I contrast my feelings tonight with what they were then what a change. Little did I think then that before two years were over she would be taken from me and I would be motherless. None but those who have felt that loss can imagine what it is, but dearest I must conclude for tonight. I feel I must go to bed. God bless and protect my only comfort in this world. Good night dearest. Tuesday evening Your poor Pussy love has not been at all well today but I am better now. I had two doses of castor oil. I did not get up till one o'clock.