myself. I wandered from one room to another. To sit down was impossible. At last I went and sat down on a place on the hill at the back of the house from which I could see the road past Government House. I thought it was possible I might have a chance of again seeing you for I could see everything very distinctly and I was sure I would know your grey horse if I saw it pass. After sitting there for about an hour I was rewarded for doing so by seeing you and Mr Williamson pass the Court House. I watched you till you disappeared at McBeth's. I then went down and met Papa coming up to see me. He insisted on my going home with him so I did. It was not till I came home again that I felt how dreadfully lonely the house was without my darling husband. Everything seemed changed. I tried to read but I could not understand a word of what I was reading. I went to bed early. I spent a