[ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.] IN DOUBLE HARNESS

New Zealand Graphic, Volume XXXII, Issue I, 2 January 1904, Page 7

[ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.] IN DOUBLE HARNESS

By

ANTHONY HOPE.

AUTHOR OF -DOLLY DIALOGUES,” PRISONER OF ZENDA.” -RUPERT OF HENTZAN.” ETC

CHAPTER X. THE FLINTY WALL. There was one point about Jeremy Chidding fold's system of philosophy—if . that name may be allowed to dignify the rather mixed assortment of facts and inferences which he had gathered, from his studies z this point was that there was no appeal against facts. Nature was nature, feelings were feelings, and change was development. One thing was right to-day: it became wrong tomorrow without ceasing to have been right yesterday. Let there be an end of ignorant parrot-like chatter about inconsistency" Is evolution inconsistency? Inconsistency with what? He put this question and kindred ones quite heatedly to Mrs. Mum pie. who did not at all understand them, and to whom they savoured of unorrhodoxy: she had ever distrusted a scientific education. If Jeremy could have put his case in a concrete form he would have won her sympathy. But she did not know where such general principles would stop, and she had heard that there were persons who impugned the authority of Moses. Jeremy did not much care about Mrs. Mumple's approval, though he tried his arsruments on her as a boxer tries bis fists on a stuffed sack she suggested the simile : . He did not expect to convince her. and would have been rather sorry if he had. In her present mental condition she was invaluable as a wamini* and a bud. But at was exasperating that Mrs. Hutting should hold antique. ludicrous, and an his opinion in the end debased views about social intercourse between the sexes—in fact ■ to descend to that concrete which -Jeremy's ■soul abhorred about girls of seventeen taking walks with young men of 22. Mrs. Hutting’s views on this point imposed on Jeremy’s proceeding''-, which he felt to be unbecoming to a philosopher. He had to scheme, to lie in wait, to plan most unlikely accidents, on aecasion to palter with truth, to slip behind a waggon or to hide inside a barn. A recognition on Mrs. Hutting's part of nature, of facts, and of development would have relieved Jeremy from al! these distasteful expedients. But Mrs. Hurting was an old-fashion-ed woman. She obeyed her husband—usually, however, suggesting on what points he might reasonably require obedience. She expected her daughter to obey her. And she had her views, which she had enforced in a very quiet but a very firm way. Modern tendencies

were not in favour ax the rectory, that being established as a premise. it followed that anything which was disapproved of at the rectory was a modern tendency: wherefore clandestine and spuriously accidental meetings between young men and young women were a modern tendency, or. anyhow, signs of one—and of a very ba<! one. too. No ancient instances would have shaken Mrs. Hulling on this point: the train of logic was too strong. Certainly Dora never tried to shake her mother's judgment or to break the chain. For Doni was old-fashioned, too. She. too. held that clandestine and spuriously aceider tai meetings were wrong. But sometimes the clandestine character or the spuriousness of the accident could !*=• plausibly questioned: besides, a thing may be wrong, and yet not he so very, very bad. And the thing may be sue?; fun. and so amusing that —well, one goes and tries not to be found out. On these ancient hut not obsolete lines Miss Dora framed her conduct, getting thereby a spice of excitement and a fearful joy which no duly licensed encounter* could have given her. But she had B“> doubt that Mrs Hutting was quite right. Anna Selford's critical attitude towards her pa rents was not in the rectory way. ’“Suppose she’d seen us?" Dora pered behind the barn, as the rectory pony -chaise rolled slowly by. “We’re doing nothing wrong. 1 should like to walk straight out an i say so." “If you do. I'll never speak to you again.” ”1 hate this —this dodging?” “Then why don’t you take your walks the other way? You know I come her* . Why do you come if you feel like that about it t” Thus Dora flashed her maiden sword. I: was an added joy to make Jeremy Go things which he disliked. And all this time she was snubbing him and his tentative approaches. Lovers: certainly not —or of course she would liave told mamma? Accepted Jeremy? N — she liked to think that she was trifling with him. In fine, she was simply behaving shamefully, badly, in a rapturously delightful way: and to see a pretty girl doing that is surely a refreshing and rejuvenating sigh: ? Well, “he word pretty is perhaps a concession to Jeremy. The only girl in the place is always pretty. Dora was ar any rate fresh and fair, lithe and clean-limbed, gay and full of fun. A dreadful peril threatened, with which Dora appalled her own fancy -and

Jeremy's troubled heart. A: seventeen school is still. possible — a finishingschool. Mrs Hutting had brandished this weapon, conscious in her own mind that rhe rectory finances would hardly suflice to put an edge on it. Dora did not realise this difficulty. “You remember that time we wer seen I Well, there was an awful row. and mamma said that if it happened once again I should g«> —for a year?” Jeremy felt that somthing must be done, and said so. “What could I dot” Thar was a little more difficult for Jeremy. “You must take pains *o avoid me.” said Dora, suhooling her Zips to primness. “Y* u don’t want to net me sent away, do you?” Certainly these spring months were very pleasant to Miss Dora. But. alas! calamity came. I: happened in Milldean just as it might have happened in the West End of London. The school-

teacher said something to the pos:- • istress. There was nobody much else ■•» say anything—for the wise-eyed the maid, gave a shrewd kindly n-d. and went on their wax with an inarticulate but appreciative chuckle. H >wever. the school-teacher did say something to the post-mis tress, whence the — .el.' j t-.ime : » Mrs Hutting’s ears. There was an »ther “row.” no doubt even ••■uc-re “’awful." The finishing-school was it. after a consultation on finance, put aside by the rev-tor and Mrs Hutting. Another - - ■ _ - tated a note, the rector wrote and t across t Old MUI H*w>e by the gardener, addressed to “Jeremy < hiddingfold. Esq." In fact, no circumstance of ceremony was omitted. and I> ra watel - _ . of “\rann> from her bedroom window. In the n »te which began “Sir” Jeremy s

he was no gentleman. anil that all relation?- het men the rectory and himself were at an end. Jeremy stumped up and down th? room, furiously exclaiming that L • did not care whether he wa- a gentleman or not. He was a man. That was enough for him. and ought to he enough tor anvliody. Mrs Multiple was positively frightened into agreeing with him on this point. But however sound the point might be, relations with the rectory were broken off. What was to be done t Jeremy determined to go to town and lay before Grantley and Sibvlla the unparalleled circumstances of 'the ease. But first there was—well there would be—one more stolen meeting. But it was not quite of the sort which might have been anticipated. Dora's levity was gone: she played ■with him no more. But neither did she follow the more probable course, and, under the influence of grief and the pain of separation, give the rein to her feelings, acknowledge her love, and exchange her vows for his. The oldfashioned standards had their turn; evidently the rectory upbraidings had been very severe. Every disobedience, every trick, every broken promise rose up in judgment, and declared the sentence to be just, however severe. Jeremv was at a loss how to face this. He had been so convinced that nature was with them, and that nature spelt rectitude. He was aghast at a quasitheological and entirely superstitious view that no good or happiness could come out of a frendship iDora adhered obstinately to this word) initiated in such a way. He refused to recognise her wickedness and even his own. \\ hen she announced her full acceptance of the edict, her determination to evince penitence by absolute submission, he could only burst out. “They haven’t been cruel to you?” "Cruel? No! They've been most — most gentle. I've come to see how wrong it was.” "Yet vou’re here!” He could not resist the retort. “For the last time, to say good-bye. And if you really care at all you must do as I wish.” "But —I may write to you?” "No, no: you musn’t.” "You can't stop me thinking about you.” "1 shan't think of you. 1 shall pray to be able not to. I'm sure I can be strong.” She had got this idea in her head. It was just the sort of idea that Sibylla might have got. She wanted to immolate herself. For sneh views in Sibylla, Jeren.v had always nad denunciations ready. He had a denunciation now—only a despairing puzzle.

"1 can't accept that, and 1 won't! Do you ,ove me?” "I'm going to keep my promise to -•y nothing. I've told you what 1 must do and what you must. I made up my mind—and—and then I went to the '■aerament to-day.” Jeremy nibbed his wrinkled brow, eyeing this determined penitent very ruefully. A sudden retum to rectitude i- disconcerting in an accomplice. He di<l not know what to do. But his bulldog persistence was roused, and his square jaw set obstinately. Weil. 1 shall consider what to do. I believe you love me, and 1 shan’t sit down under this.” "You must!” she said. "And now, good-bye.” He came towards her. but her raised hand stopped him. “Good-bye like this* You won't even shake hands?” “No. I can t. Good-bye.” Or course he was sorry tor her. but he was decidedly angry, too. He perceived a case of the selfishness of spiritual exaltation. His doggedness turned to surliness. "Al! right, then, good-bye,” he said, sulkily. -You're not angry with me?” "Yes. 1 am.” She accepted this additional cross, and bore it meekly. "That hurts me very much. But I must do right. Good-bye.” And with that she went- firm to the last, leaving Jeremy almost as furious with women as in the palmiest days of his youth, almost as angry with her as he had ever been with the long-legged rectory girl. Pursuing (though he did not know it) paths as well trodden as those which he had already followed, he formed an instant determination in his mind. She should be sorry for it! Whether she should sorrow with a life-long sorrow or whether she should ultimately, after much grief and humiliation, find forgiveness- he did not decided for the moment: both ideas had their attraction. But. at any rate, she should be soiry, and that as soon as possible. How was it to be brought about? Jeremy conjectured that a remote and ill-ascertained success in original research would not make her sorry, and his conclusion may be allowed to’ pass: nor would a continuance of shabby clothes and an income of a hundred a year. This combination had once seemed all-sufficient. Nav. it would suffice now for true and whole-hearted love. But it was not enough to make a cruel lady repent of her crueltv. nor to convict a misguided zealot of the folly of her zeal. It was not dazzling enough for that. In an hour Jeremy threw his old ideal of life

to the winds, and decided for wealth and mundane fame peedy wealth and speedy mundane fame ■-pecu was essential, because Jeremy's feelings were in a hurry). Such laurels and fruits were not to be plucked in Milldean. That very night Jeremy packed a well-worn leather bag and a square deal box. He was going to London, to see Grantley and Sibylla, to make them acquainted with the state of the ease, and to set about becoming rich and famous as speedily as possible. His mind o’erleapt the process and saw it already completed—saw his return to Milldean rich and famous—saw his renewed meeting with Dora, the confusion of the rector and Mrs. Hutting, the unavailing—or possibly at last availing—regret and humiliation of Dora. It cannot truthfully be said that he went to bed altogether unhappy. He had his dream, even as Dora had hers; he had his luxury of prospective victory as she had hers of unreserved and accepted penitence; and they shared the conviction of a very extraordinary and unprecedented state of things. So to town came Jeremy, leaving Mrs. Mir. pie alone in Old Mill House. She was not idle. She was counting months now—not years now. but months, and she '.."as knitting socks, and making flannel shirts, and hemming big red handkerchiefs, and picturing and wondering in her faithful old heart what that morning would be like for whose coming she had waited so many, many years. Great hopes and great fears were under the ample breast of her unshapely merino gown. In the Imason household the strain grew more intense. With rare tenacity, unimpaired confidence, and unbroken pride. Grantley maintained his attitude. He would tire out Sibylla's revolt : he would outstay the fits of sulks, however long it might be. But the strain told on him. though it did not

break him; he was more away: more engrossed in his outside activities; grimmer and more sardonic when he was at home; careful to show no feeling which might expose him to rebuff; extending the scope of this conduct from hi> wife to his child, because his wife's grievance was bound up with the child. And Sibylla, seeing the attitude, seeing partially only and therefore more resenting the motives, created out of it and them a monster of insensibility, something of an inhuman selfishness, seeming the more horrible and unnatural from the unchanging, if cold, courtesy which Grantley still displayed. This image had been taking shape ever since their battle at MillJean. It had grown with the amused scorn which was on his face as he told her of the specialist’s judgment, and made her see how foolish she had been, what an unnecessary fuss she had caused, how dangerous and silly it was to let one’s emotions run away with one. It had defined itself yet more clearly through the months before and after the boy’s birth, as Grantley developed his line of action and adhered to it, secure apparently from every assault of natural tenderness. Now the portentous shape was all complete in her imagination, and the monster she had erected freed her from every obligation. By ner hypothesis it was accessible by no appeal and sensitive to no emotion. Why. then, labour uselessly? It would indeed be to knock your head —yes. and your heart, too—against a flinty wall. As for trying to show or to cherish love for it—that seemed to her prostitution itself. And she bad no tenacity to endure such a life as Grantley, and her image of Grantley, made for her. In her headlong fashion she had already pronounced the alternatives —death or flight. And there was the baby boy in his helplessness; and there was young Blake

with hi-t ready hot passion. marked ly tho®<- aspirations of hi®, and his fi»-ry indignation seconding an<l applauding the despair of her own heart. For Blake knew the truth now —the truth as Sibylla's imaginings made it; and in view of that truth the thing his pa--sdon urged him to became a holy duty. His goddess must be no more mi*us«'d; her misery mu-t not be allowed to endwe.

Knowing his tbought ar.J what his heart was towards her, Sibylla turned to him as a child turns simply from a hard to a loving face. Here was a life wanting her life, a love asking hers. She had always believed people when they said they loved and wanted her—why. she bad believed even Grantley him<elf! —and was always convinced that their love for her was all they said it was. It was her instinct to believe that. She believed all—aye. more —about young Blake than he believed about himself, though he believed very much just now: and she would always have people all white or all black. Grantley was all black now, and Blake was very white, white as snow, while he talked of his aspirations and his love, and tempted her to leave all tiiat bound her, and to give her life to him. He tempted well, for he offered not pleasure, but the power of doing good and beatowing happiness. Her first natural love seemed to have spent itself on Grantley; she had no passion left, save the passion of giving. It was to this he made his appeal; this would be enough to give him all his way. Yet there was the child. He had not yet ventured on that difficult, uncertain ground. There, was where the struggle would be; it was there that he distrusted the justice of his own demand on her, there that his passion had to drown the inward voices of protest. - It might have happened that -Jeramy, with his fresh love and fresh ambitions, we-uld have been a relief to such a position; that his appeal both to sympathy and to amusement would have done something to clear the atmosphere. So far as he himself went, indeed, he was irresistible; his frankness and his confidence were not to be denied. Trusting in the order of nature, he knew no bashfulness; trusting in himself, he had no misgivings. Without doubt he was right. They all agreed that the old ideal of original research and a hundred a year must be abandoned, and t hat Jeremy must become rieh and famous as soon as possible. "Though whether you ought to forgive her in the end is, I must say. a very difficult point." remarked Grantley with a would-be thoughtful smile. 'Tn eases of penitence, I myself favour forgiveness, Jeremy.'’ “But there is the revelation of her character.” suggested Sibylla, taking the matter more seriously, or treating its want of seriousness with more tenderness. “I'm inclined to think the young lady’s right at present,” said Blake. ••What you have to do is to give her ground for changing her views—and to give her mother ground for changing hers too.” Jeremy listened to theip all with engrossed interest. Whatever their attitude, they all confirmed his view.

“Yon once spoke of a Iwrth in the City?” he said to Grantley. "Not miu-h fame there; but perlmps you may as well take things by instalments.” “I don't like if. you know. It’s not my line at all.” Blake came to the rescue. The Selfords drew their money from large and imjxirtant dyeing works, although Selford himself had retired from any active share in the work of the business. There was room for scientific aptitude in dyeing works. Blake opined rather vaguely. "You could make chemistry, for instance, subserve the needs of commerce, couldn't you?” "That really is a good suggestion,” said Jeremy, approvingly. “Capital!” Grantley agreed. "Well get al Selford for yon, Jeremy, and if necessary we’ll club together and send to Terra del I'tiego and buy Janet Selford a new dog.” “I begin to see my way,” Jeremy announced. Whereat the men laughed, while Sibylla came round and kissed him. laughing. too. What a very short time ago, and she had been even as Jeremy, as sanguine, as confident, seeing her way as clearly, with just as little warrant of knowledge! "Meanwhile yon mustn’t mope, old ehap.” said Grantley. "Mopet Tve no time for moping. Do you think I could see this Self ord to-morrow?” ■TH give you a letter to take to him.” laughed Grantley. "But don’t ask for ten thousand a year all at onee, you know.” “I know the world. When I really want a tiling 1 can wait for it.” But it was evident that he did not mean to wait very long. Grantley said ten thousand a year; a thousand would seem riches to the Mill-dean rectory folk. "That’s right. If you want a thing, you must be ready to wait for it," agreed Grantley, with smiling iips and a pucker on his brow. “So long as there- is any hope,” added Sibylla. These hints of underlying things went unheeded by Jeremy, but Blake marked them. They were becoming more frequent now as the tension grew and grew. “There's always a hope with reasonable people.” “Opinions differ so much as to what is reasonable.” "Dora's not reasonable at present, anyhow.” Jeremy's mind had not travelled beyond his or.a predicament. The contrast he pointed, the mocking memories he stirred, made his presence accentuate and embitter the-strife, confirming Sibylla's despair, undermining even Grantley’s • obstinate self-con-fidence; while to Blake his example, however much one might smile at it, seemed to cry “Courage!! ” He who would have the prize must not shrink from the struggle. That night Sibylla sat long by her boy's cot. Little Frank slept quietly (he had been named after his godfather, Grantley's friend, that Lord Caylesham who was also the Fans Law's friend-, while his mother fought against the

love and the obligation that bound her to him—a sad and fearful fight to wage. She had some arguments not lacking speeiou saras. To what a life would he grow up in such a home as theirs! la»ok al the life the Courtland children led! Would not anything be better than that—any seanda! in the part. any ks® in present and future? She called to Iter help, too. that occasional pang which the helpless little l-eing gave her. he the innocent cause and iunorant embodiment of all her perished hope®. Might not that come oftener? Might it not grow and grow till it conquered all her love, and she ended by hating because she might have loved so greatly? Horrible! Yes, but had it not nearly come to pass with one whom site Itad loved very greatly? It could not be called impossible, however to be loathed the idea might be. No, not impossible! Iler husband was the child's father. Did he love him? No. she cried—she had almost persuaded herself that his indifference screened a positive dislike. And if it were not impossible, any desperate thing would be better than the chance of it. But for Grantley she could love, she could go on loving the child. Then why not make an end of her life with Grantley—the life that was souring her heart and turning all love to bitterness? Grantley would not want the child, and. not wanting it. would let her have it. She did not believe that he would burden himself with the boy for the sake of depriving her of him. She admitted with a passing smile that he had not this small spitefulness—his vices were on a larger scale. She eould go to Grantley and say she must leave him. No law and no power could prevent her. and she believed that she could take the boy with her. Why not do that? Do that and let honour at least stand pure and uniinpeached! The question brought her to the issue she had tried to shirk, to the truth she had sought to hide. Her love for the boy was much, but it was not enough, it did not satisfy. Was it even the greatest thing? As it were, with a groan, her spirit answered. No. The answer could not be denied, however she might

stand condemned by it. Of physical passivn -he lutd acquitted herself and now she was in no mood for ea<y se’facquittal; but there was the greater pa-».*ion for intercourse of anuf. for union, for devotUm. for abandonment of the heart. l*ie«e asked a responding heart, they knowledge, fee! ing< gruAvn to full a eon*--iou« will, an intellect adult and articulate. They could be found in full only where <he Lad thought to rind them in the love of woman and man, of tit man for fit uoman. and of her for him. 1 hey eoultl not l>e found in t!»e love for her child. Christie*' Fanshaw had asked ner if «he could not be wrapped up in the baby. Xu, die eould embrace it in her love, but hers was too large for its little ern:-* to enfold. cried for a wider field and *hit -rented a greater ta-k. And what wa< wronsr. distasteful, disastrous in the conclusion’ < !>e had the old answer for this. “It’s not my fault.” «he said. It was net her fault that her love had found no answering love, had found no sun to bloom in, and had peri sited for want of warmth. Not on her head lay the blame. So far as human being can absolve human being from the command* of God or of human society, she declared that by Grantley’s act she stood absolved. The contract in it* true essence had not been broken first by her. Ah! why talk? Why argue* There were true things to be said, valid argument* to u*>e. On this she insisted. But in the end the imperious cry of her nature rang out over all of them and uronned their feebler voices. Come what might, and let the arguments be weak or strong, she would not for all her life, that glorious life Heaven had given her. beat her heart against the flinty wall. (To be continued J