20th Novr My dearest Douglas I cannot describe to you the various emotions and suspense I have been in till I read your letters by the 'Rose' which although they contain most melancholy news of poor Mama's frail state of health yet give some hopes of her recovery and thanks to the Almighty your last letter is the most encouraging you have sent me. That scoundrel the Dane must not be admitted near your house as he is a most notorious thief and great scoundrel. Surely you cannot have received my letters from Russel's station, Wairarapa or you would have known that, neither do you seem to have received my letter enclosing £3 of which I give you the particulars in the foregoing part of this letter. But these are trifling considerations. I am vexed beyond measure at not being able to join you at once but I fear dearest this will be impossible without